dooriyaan...

I loved this song from the lastest movie LOVE AAJ KAL….awesome lyrics and soothing to ur senses…few small pleasures in life almost for free..some soul stirring music…Its free its free its free….trust me the best things in life are always free…even he is... lol :) My twin bro…the best thing tat could have happened to me…

……..loads and loads of memories jes flash by writing this post now…going to school together, playing together, having almost the same set of friends, he cracking the most stupid jokes on earth and me laughing until my eyes waters, dancing exclusively for me wen am low with the most weirdest props, waking me up with Dev D emotional attyachaar songs (as alarm) during my exams, suprising me with some amazing gifts, remembering small little things ( he gifted me a pretty dress last birthday wit a green and white combo becoz I had told him som day tat I like the combination..well I had actually forgotten abt it), completing journals for me ( I have never ever done tat for him in his 4 yrs of engineering ), making me listen to songs tat must have come up recently and we fighting over it wether it would become a chartbuster!! He responding to each and every name tat I call him wit (well amma gets a bit amused by it ),planning and telling some white lies together (I had lost count how many times I must have called his TL at office to tell one..wer he actually writes down sentences for me as to wat to tell and I go byhearting them..only to goof it up and we end up fighting !!!), me cooking up something and he rating it ( he actually gets a bit annoyed wen I cook som of his favourites and I go distributing it to the kids in my wing….the cakes to be precise :)….wen he emotionally blackmails me to accompany him for a movie tat I may not be interested in ( he blackmails me saying tat he wont call me next time and tat he vl take ameya along :p)… wen I comb his hair and make many pony tails out of them ( he looks sooo cute )….

never thought I would miss him so badly…not tat I haven’t been away from him till now but then this time vl have to wait for long really long…a small void somewer wich I cant figure out…jes feel so lonely at times may be becoz I knw at the end of the day he wont be back at home..maybe becoz I knw he wont be around to bug me….to pull my leg on stupid things tat I do…oh god wen I pen this down I can feel his presence somehow….

i knw he is gone for good and tat he vl be back..i knw I can chat wit him every single day…I knw tat I cant stay wth him life long….i knw it wen my dear ones tell tat this is life and I vl have to adapt by…I knw..i knw it…but at times I jes need him, his presence…I miss waking him up in the morning, I miss opening the door wen he comes in late nite, I miss clearing around the mess tat he creates before he leaves for office, I miss fighting wit him……I miss………….it jes rolls down my cheeks unknowingly...........there Is truly nothing tat I can say to capture wat he means to me...... he is someone whom I love the most in this world :) :)
dooriyaan……
Kabhi hua yeh bhi
Khali Rahon pe bhi
Tu tha mere saath
Kabhi tujhe milke lauta
mera dil yeh khali khali haath……………..yeh dooriyaan...