STRANGE!!!

People are different in many ways. Some are tall, while others are short. People could be extroverts or they could be introverts. You could come across optimistic people or you could come across pessimistic people. But when it comes to a select few, the word strange falls way short of describing their exact nature.

What could seem to be right with them at one point in time, may seem altogether wrong at another. What they might promote today, could be completely different from what they promoted two days ago. They might tell you that something you did was wrong in whichever way you look at it. But if the tide reverses, and they find themselves in a similar position, they will repeat the "so called" mistake that you had done. Just when you want to discard the feeling of anger because you do not want to make an issue out of it, they would come up to you with an explanation that compels you to think that your brain had stopped thinking for some time. They could find fault with someone today, but tomorrow, they could repeat the same mistake and tell you without pausing even for a moment, that what they did was nothing short of perfect!

Strange, chaotic, crazy all of these words fall way short of expressing such people. But if I tell you that they are, not selfish, but self-centered to such an extent that nothing else would matter to them apart from themselves, you can start painting a picture of the people I am describing here. The thing that they desire for themselves might be any of the following... money, ego, power, status or recognition. At the end of the day, however, what matters most to them, is just themselves. Others, well, they could please go to hell.

Welcome to the world of strangers whom you know so well, but can't express in words that could make others understand how strange they are. Welcome to this strange feeling of strangeness. The best way is to explore it around you. Who knows, it could have been an point that you missed comprehending in a person near you.


we are not human beings on a spiritual journey but spiritual beings on a human journey......

NOSTALGIA.......

It’s the payoff season of the year...grand finale of another academic year..this time they are really special, probably my last formal exams :) my university board exams are commencing from March end and I want to give my best as usual so I started going to my college reading hall for preparing for it..The best part I like about exams is the preparation that goes into it....it takes a toll on me but still I love it at the end of the day...love it for many reasons :)

Most of my class mates meet up at the reading hall to study..those 5-6 hrs that we spend there racking our brains, clearing each others doubts..explaining the difficult topics to the one who cant figure out..few minutes of sleep in between...a bit of gossiping..having lunch together...making awesome plans for the next day [which never see light most of the times :) ], running to the Xerox shop to get the last minute photocopy done [ I am at times in love with the person who invented the Xerox machine..our life would have been an utter mess otherwise :) :) ], calling up each other at late night just to tell that we are tensed about some topics…all these were a part of my life...until today when all of a sudden one of my friends reminded me that its going to be over soon.." just two more months Sangi…and its over.” Those words hit me hard...I guess because I was running away from this fact and such thoughts for a while now...

Yes I know it will be over soon...after few months we all will be there with the biggest challenge called LIFE in front of us...away from the comfort zone of one another...trotting onto different paths with diverse aims and ambitions...still I cant believe that all is going to end...nowadays every thing we do together ends up with these emotions surging up...at times I fail to understand the very basic essence of life...CHANGE...y shuld there be one, wen we all are happy with the life we have...y shuld there be one wen we knw that these moments are just going to remain as memories..I knw its dim-witted to ask all this...but...still....

As someone said that LIFE GOES ON...we move on...as I am on the verge of experiencing (and hoping to master) this art in life ( moving on)...I feel nostalgic about all those moments I spent in the two years of my post-graduation...All those moments in the kaleidoscope of life are experiences that have helped me mature as a person... Everything that I lived through in these 2 years are now in just some less visible form called memories...freezed in the refrigerator of my soul and the cupboard of the heart...some moments that I vl cherish for a lifetime...more than these moments I have few good relations that have built on during these couple of years..relations wich I knw are stronger and have stood rock solid during my worst times...

Now wen I sit down to write..all I want is to embrace those beautiful moments and relations…for I know I cannot relive them ..for I know the richness of my life lies in those memories...

Memories become treasures in the heart to pull out on tough days of LIFE...

A JOURNEY OF LOVE....

Sometimes there is a sense of contentment.A kind of gratification that embraces me, hitherto I didn’t know the source of this feeling but recently I have discovered that it emerges from the satisfied soul within me after each visit to the orphanage.

It’s a girls orphanage run by a group of ex military officers at sion in Mumbai. There are around 30 of them ..all of distinct persona, age. Of all am a bit biased to one angel there...her name is Aditi..a second standard student and of the few very young ones there..biased for reasons unknown :) she has a flair for most of the things wich I too love...dance, music and sketching. Each of my visit there she makes it a point to show me her new dance steps, her new sketches..and we discusss music like crazy..yaa we discuss..she is a bit matured for her age...I guess most of the children I met in the orphanage was so...the destitution in their lives and the state of affairs there made them like that...Matured.

Yesterday’s visit to the orphanage gave me altogether a different high becoz the madam in charge of the orphanage told me that a couple has come forward to adopt aditi...hearing this I was elated, ecstatic..delighted my happiness knew no bounds!! Still getting those goose pimples wen am writing this down :) I went to her and cuddled her with a tinge of tears in my eyes...she looked at me a bit amused..the creases on her forehead and the twinkle in her eye conveyed much more than I could comphrend...she has mixed feelings at the moment...but I am just too happy for her..more than happy I am touched by the deed of that couple who had taken this decision... It makes me happy to know that people still do some things the way their hearts want them to be done :) I have always believed that there are a few bonds which are stronger than many others...bonds and relations which don’t have names..I guess the couple must have felt some kind of cosmic connection with her..this gesture of theirs only reinforces my belief in the Almighty.

Aditi will be entering into a new world...a world she must not have experienced before...with loads of new relations..new people...it will be a new journey in her life…a journey of love...and love of all forms...I wish her all the best..much love and prayers :)



Looking back, I don’t have this to regret, that too often when I loved, I did not say so……..